Leave As Soon As You Can!

 I’ve been a lurker on this subreddit for a while now. I’ve seen a couple of people who are on the fence about SCJ and that’s very normal.

I had been part of the organization for a little over 3 years and although I stayed that long my doubts and suspicions began while I was in center. Because I couldn’t tell anyone I knew about the Bible study I would voice my suspicions with the evangelists and instructors thinking that they would tell me the truth and truly had my best interest at heart, after all they are devout Christians why would they lie.

I got to a point where I brushed off every red flag and rebuked myself for having doubts. I decided to give myself fully to this work. A lot transpired during my years in Shincheonji, I met good people inside, I took positions of leadership, I recruited people thinking that I’m doing the will of God.

I noticed that it’s only once you’ve left that you realize how much you have lost. Time being the most important because that’s one thing you cannot get back. Friends I’ve lost in the world because I was so busy working my life away in SCJ. Family does not trust me anymore. I quit my job to be a full time worker. But also my mental health, my mental health has suffered the most. I’ve been diagnosed with severe depression anxiety and paranoia because of the things I’ve experienced inside. It’s a daily struggle of trying not to die.

I think about the person I was before SCJ, I wish I could turn back time and leave while I was still in center. I could have saved myself so much.

For those who are on the fence. You know very well why you have your doubts, people in SCJ will only try to keep you inside even if you were at the brink of death.

It’s your decision to make, but my advice would be to leave as soon as possible.

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