I am officially an ex SCJ member and I feel empty now...
Today I quit SCJ ministries after 9 months of being there. I live in Germany and a friend of mine invited me to one of their bible seminars and I liked it there. The people were friendly, open and easy to talk to. At the end of the seminar we even dined together. A couple of days later I had bible studies with a missionary and at first everything they taught was backed up by bible verses. I had a couple of questions here and there but they were dismissed because I can’t handle the word of flesh but must be fed with the word of milk (their words) there’s even a bible verse about the saying. About 7 months later they revealed themselves as SCJ and the whole thing seemed sketchy to me and I attempted to leave the group but they won’t let me. I started to slowly distance myself from them and start partaking less and less in the (online) bible studies. When I asked my friend why I should pay 60€ for the course, she told me that they want to have me in the course because I am doing a great job at the Bible studies, she lied to me. And now all the realities of SCJ hit me at once. I am sad that I was dumb enough to stay there and I feel extremely betrayed by my friend who introduced me to them. I listed my reasoning to the missionaries as to why I don’t want to stay in SCJ and she responded with "that’s okey, but you seem angry" of course I am angry because I wasted my time and money there. And none of the love and care they showed was genuine and it seems as if the friend who introduced me to SCJ ghosted me. She has not responded to the message that I sent her. I am heartbroken :( does anyone know how to cope with the feeling of emptiness
